I am frustrated.. I am devastated...
I had an argument with my parents regarding on my posts on facebook since now they "don't want me to question the government as it will be put me on jail"... So be it honestly! Does this government just want to hear only good things from its citizen? They don't want to be criticized for their wrong doing? If so, THEY BETTER RESIGN! Criticism will always be there... Just had to swallow them and accept them so that we can check what is wrong and what is right and try to tweak and/or correct it! May mga isip na po tayo! Alam naman dapat ang tama at mali and honestly as I'm reviewing my posts on facebook, I don't see any harm in it. Im sadden that my parents wanted me to stop voicing my opinion in it.. yes i know naman not all opinion should be public or voiced out... this is why i keep my facebook private as much as possible... but being told to stop voicing out my opinions is like silencing me... this isnt the first time they've done it to me.. but this time i wont be silence! People know me to be very opinionated... sa kanila lang naman ako nag oopinion kasi pag sa parents ko, what i say is not important sa kanila... they always make me feel this way... Also I am not questioning the government... I am venting frustrations only.. di ko naman pinost or nag post na magnanakaw ako ng relief goods no... I post none of that! Im just expressing my sadness to those people na nawalan ng trabaho, yung dami nag dodonate na private sector sa government pero di pa din nabibigay kasi need pa nagrequest... Those are the only stuff i said! Now my parents wants to stop me to protect me from any criminal cases the government might file against me for allegedly questioning it and this is what saddens me.. this post is no longer about the government.. this is now about my own person... I'm already 25 going 26 and my interpersonal skills is still awkward but I'm trying and still living with them.. i can't get out because they don't want me to do jobs like call center "kasi bakit pa ako nag aral kung yan lang man din gahawin ko"... I feel like im on a cage... i love my parents so much but sometimes... Its too much already... They made me think I'm a failure without them realizing... Its like they're saying na wala akong mararating sa buhay! I know they mean good naman for me but sometimes... Its too much... I keep telling myself na I can't be depressed kasi psych major ako.. kakayanin ko to and i just let them be... i have thought of a lot of unthinkable stuff and I'm glad i still hanging... Minsan the only way for me to vent out is to have temper outburst on them and if i did... I'm always the bad child... What else can i do? If they want to deprived me from being opinionated as well? I think going to jail might be better because i might be free by being there...
